I arrive home, throw my keys on the chair and set the
groceries on the table as I purposely catch his eye. He stands one foot in the
kitchen and one foot in the living room, not a difficult feat in my tiny
one-bedroom apartment, and he instantly reads my ashamed distraught stricken
body language,
“Uhh, what’s up?"
“I did something bad.”
His stare hardens but remains concerned with the spatula
frozen in his hand forgetting about dinner as he waits in anticipation of my
‘bad’ action. His logic:
“Did you hit something?”
My smile cracks through since he’s the one with the most
recent driving record these last couple of months but I cave and say,
“Nooo…
…I bought chocolate.”
Relief sweeps over him as I sink into the couch arm-crossed
and pouty. He sits beside with his arms wrapped around my shoulders, he kisses
my cheek.
“But that’s a good thing!”
He was genuinely excited to see the sweets I bought even
though my errands only included getting my prescription from Walgreens and
returning the Big Bang disc we just finished watching. I totally indulged, went
into Hastings rented the next two discs we needed (almost done with season
five- yikes!) and then found myself at the candy aisle. Just to check out,
Hastings pretty much stuffs the candy down your throat for you, you’re just
still expected to pay the ridiculous three bucks for a Snickers. But today I was on a mission and that mission
was chocolate. So I got Hersey’s Cookies and Crème for me, king size Reese’s
for him, and bite-size Kit-Kat’s for the both of us. Something just felt
disgusting:
I guess for the most part, most of my unhealthy pleasures
(besides my free meals at bclub!) are given to me. I rarely have to purchase
something that tastes like heaven with the consequence of a kajillion calories.
Okay, another lie. There is the occasion Taco Bell and unfortunately, wine is
loaded with calories.
Whatever, you get the point.
It’s post finals week, I’ve been jolted into full-time at
work and let’s just say I’m mentally and physically recovering. A little bit of
my pride at work (because I’m sorry I swear I heard huzzafuhta which sounds
nothing like turkado! Ugh, breathe…) and my feet screaming at me from being
vertical all day. Regardless, I just wanted chocolate.
As I approached the check out stand I took note of the other
customers surrounding me, the employees, and any living soul that could
possibly be judging me, right? Everyone does this every once and a while. Which
demonstrates who truly ashamed I was of this purchase… but I was still
confident in my purchase, just dreading the small talk. Like really, what kind
of conversation starters?
“Bad day?” ----- *Glare
“Girls night?”
----- *Cries, “My best friends live miles
away and I haven’t seen them in months.”
(FACT- I did accidently start crying
on the boyfriend after he complimented my dress. I remembered how Chantel wore
it last and the statement made me miss her. But he didn’t know that tidbit… and
as a result, I looked like that crazy girlfriend that cries over compliments. Ooops!
To make is better I think that was the first time I cried in front of him …)
ANYWAY, I was dreading awkward small talk and as his cologne
crept across the counter and assaulted my senses, I handed him my Hastings card, thankful that at least I didn’t have any late fees.
“Did you see the 80 cents rack? I definitely bought a few on
my lunch break.”
He was referencing another candy aisle that apparently, I don’t
imagine how, I didn’t see. I was so astonished, at his comment not the cheap
price, that I bought a 1000 Grand even though I had no desire to actually eat
it. His response couldn’t have been more perfect; it kinda brought me back to earth.
We humans are silly.
I usually am not one who is quick to judge but I still
sometimes try to get into the heads of others when quite frankly, it’s
impossible. And not worth it. But I was
so worn down from the semester and work that my thoughts were eating me alive. This
guy was a great reminder for me to come out of my head, back to real life, and
to continue giving zero fucks about the thoughts of others. If I want to eat chocolate,
I’m going to eat chocolate, damnit!
Those who mind don’t matter and the ones that matter don’t
mind.
Needless to say, Ian also thoroughly enjoyed the 1000 Grand and I'm pretty sure it barely took 24 hours to consume all of this chocolate purchase.
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